Has anyone mastered this question? Anyone? Sure, there is “relationship love”, information that tells you to communicate, find your partner’s love language, listen… you want to see them happy, are willing to do what it takes to relieve the burden; you respect them. This “choice” love isn’t easy. It waivers, and if it’s worth itContinue reading “To Love or not to Love”
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Hurry Up and Wait
Dylan’s most recent relapse ended up in East Los Angeles, CA. He had gone there for treatment after relapsing in Texas and left the detox after less than 24 hours. That started an agonizing 3 nights of fear for me, wondering if he were alive and if so, what was happening to him. He endedContinue reading “Hurry Up and Wait”
Here We Go Again
Below is a “relapse” video sent from my son while in Las Vegas. He had a few months in treatment there and sounded wonderful during our last conversation, talking about how great it feels to be “free of that” and how he can’t wait to start his sober life. I got off the phone filledContinue reading “Here We Go Again”
“I Asked My Son to Write a Note”
I asked my son to write a note before he up and leavesthe next safe place called rehab, the next 3-day reprieveI told him he could make it small, a folded little squareI said “Will you please write this down and keep it safe somewhere?”I said to write my name and his, my number clearContinue reading ““I Asked My Son to Write a Note””
My Son Might Die Today
That’s the thought I carry with me daily. So when a co-worker notices I’m not quite as “smiley” or my husband comments “you seem a little quiet today”, THAT’s the thought that sits on my tongue, heavy, wanting me to let it out in a shrill SCREAM in their direction. But, like most “mama’s ofContinue reading “My Son Might Die Today”
Mama in Pain 